In Jan of 2019, at the age of 30 yo, my then Girlfriend of 3 years, who I had loved more than deeply and caringly for than her own Dad (her words, not mine), cheated on me and broke my heart.

Oh and she didn’t just cheat on me once. Not even twice. But MULTIPLE times with AT LEAST 3 other guys she at least confided to me about then.

The worst part of this story was that one of them was actually a school acquaintance who I used to at one point consider a friend.

I couldn’t believe that someone I loved could do this to me. Worse, I couldn’t believe she didn’t even have any boundaries or respect for me and at the very least not go behind my back with someone we both knew, knew me.

See that picture of me in a Green Sweater with a Giant Bong?

This is a picture of me from 2019. Trying to numb the pain away by smoking some Weed and hoping it would make me so paranoid and anxious that at least those thoughts would be stronger and more distracting than the ones of my whole life seemingly falling apart.

One of our decisions of me coming to Canada was to create a better life for us together in the future.

I would love to say my "Winter Arc" started there but no, I was stuck in a deep depression for months and months and months more on end until at LEAST mid July 2019.

It’s not like I used to look great back then either, but the depression and apathy about life made me pretty much entirely seem to want to quit the gym, and I remember not eating for the first 3 days straight.

I remember waking up in the middle of the night on the 4th day and bursting out loud and bawling like a baby, alone in my room.

I had tried to become numb prior to that and entirely emotionless but it all comes out at some point, somewhere.

Anyways, 6+ months of creating all sorts of online dating apps to try and move on. I had a record of ZERO quality matches. Like when I say quality I’m not even saying back then I had high standards. I would get 1 out of like 600 swipes to match with a freaking landwhale and those matches would just tank my already hurt self esteem and self worth even lower.

It didn’t feel good to come to a realization that out of a surrounding population of around 2 Million+ I couldn’t seem to get ANY half decent girls interested in getting to know me. (Once I started taking action in the real world I realized how wrong this inference really was, but that wasn’t as obvious back then.)

In June/July of 2019 I found Psychedelics and on one of my first few trips I realized that truly the ONLY person in this world, that was actually holding me back, was myself.

It wasn’t REALLY how my parents/society/culture affected or raised me, it wasn’t the previous heartbreaks or deceits, it wasn’t previous workplace managers and such taking advantage of me etc.

It was just me not learning to pivot from previous attempts (what I like to relabel “failures” as) and moving into what the next best step should be, without creating pessimistic stories in my head about every obstacle coming my way.

This led way to my first MAJOR goal in life I wanted to accomplish, since the age of 18 yo when I first started lifting weights...

The first thing I wanted to tackle before I die (Mushroom Wisdom about Death is around the corner), was my life long goal of being absolutely peeled out and shredded and uncovering my Aesthetics.

Something I was keen on doing and was chasing since the age of 18-19 since I first ever found Zyzz, and was attracted to his Life Transformation.

I decided to spend my hard earned money on a barely livable salary & hire a mentor to guide me along the way.

This was after being burned by many MANY coaches in the past, including some of the biggest names. I wanted someone who had done it before many times over, to guide me on my first time trying to get there. Any problem I would have, he should supposedly have answers for after attempting them many, MANY times before already.

It took me 8 months, but I went from about 25-28% body fat down to a PEELED Inside-Out 6-7%.

The amount of times I failed along the way, I don’t even remember anymore. The number of times I broke and cheated on my diet, the number of times I didn’t have food prepared at home, and had to go grocery shopping at 11PM at night after finishing work, countless.

But the truth is, if you really want to get something done, and you make it your highest priority, and you don’t give up each time an obstacle comes and you backslide a little bit, it will get done.

My Next goal was to utilize all these gainz, & actually have them serve a purpose and a function in my life, outside the gym.

Most of us, including myself, got into the gym just to lose the belly (not even think of a 6 pack, but rather just a flat stomach!), maybe have a tiny bit bigger arms and that’s it. And the goal is to look good outside the gym, and attractive to who you wish to attract. Which in most young guys cases, including myself, are other attractive women.

This has been by far the most challenging, scariest and toughest thing I have ever done, and outside of probably raising a kid ever will be.

Why?

Because putting yourself out there, in the dating market, is probably the scariest thing ever, since you are putting your raw self out there and basically asking attractive strangers,

“Hey do you like me? Would you consider going out with me?”

Cold Approaching & improving at Attracting Girls is the HARDEST form of Self Improvement that exists. It will make you, one by one, chip away at every single fear and insecurity you have ever had in your life. From thinking your life is over at the young age of 8 because kids in school didn’t you for basketball.

Your Parents never telling you they are proud of you, or a worthwhile human being someone would happily choose to spend time with. To folks taking advantage of you and your then innocence and taking your things and bullying you making you feel forever helpless, to questioning and facing your fears of the possibility of maybe no one ever liking you or finding you attractive, making you believe you are never destined for love or will forever be alone etc.

Getting over this fear of being able to attract the women I want and also the fact that there is NO PROVEN SCIENCE to this per se, it’s mostly just usually an Artform based off of social and emotional intelligence, this really REALLY intimidated me. I’ve always been good with logic and numbers and computers, that’s why science is so easy for me in general.

But emotions and feelings and that too ones that are subconscious, indirect and just signs you are looking out for?!? How does one possibly figure this out as a beginner with no experience whatsoever?

That’s when I decided to do what I do best. Research. Reddit? The worst. I’m cutting out the 100s of other shitty resources I skipped over, but finally I got down to Todd V, my fav PUA so far. Someone that actually explains the whole world around the style of Pick Up, just like I explain the whole world with analogies around Fitness & Lifting.

I spent ~$50,000 USD in 2-3 years working on my Dating & Relationship Goals

I worked with the Top 5 Coaches I could find for Pick Up. You can Google all of these guys if you’d like to confirm them all, I have multiple podcasts with all of them as well which I link below.

This one is also an incredibly milestone for me in itself. Considering I used to at one point make only 300 CAD a month, and be taken advantage of by a bunch of managers and bosses in the past.

To get up on my own 2 feet and make close to 6 figures in my FIRST year of Business?

That’s generally uneard of.

ESPECIALLY considering you aren’t selling a tangible product, but more a coaching service and something the person themselves have to work on, to deliver.

I’m not going to spend too much time on here, since I have on my Youtube channel & different videos, but once again, I looked around at others that were actually doing well in life, in my field, and decided to reach out and ask for answers and support.

I got connected with and worked with a Business and Money making Mastermind, and they guided me to get to what was then my LONG TERM GOAL, of making $10,000+ USD a month, in less than 6 months.